Like this:

Last few months odd things keep happening to me. Every time I look at the clock I see same numbers – 09:09, 11:11, 14:14, 17:17, 21:21 etc.. When I take the bus home, I see this girl, when I walk in the street downtown I see her walking the same street, when I look at the car I see her sitting inside – and she is real. Don’t get me wrong, she’s nice looking girl but I just keep seeing her everywhere I go – I wonder if she sees me also. I’ve been also having same dreams few times in a row, even three times in one night and the dream is always about arguing with a girl I secretly love. But nothing beats the oddness I felt last night …

I was sitting, watching TV and suddenly something odd struck me. I felt like time got totally lost, like it didn’t exist anymore, like there was no next day for me, no next hour, no next minute and no next second. I’ve found myself stuck in the moment with no future, feeling like … “this is it – end point”. I felt like I’ll never see morning sun again, I’ll never smell freshness of the air, I’ll never hear the wind, I’ll never feel the rain … I will never … anything.

It was the oddest feeling I’ve ever felt in my life. As a reaction of what I felt last night, I took a moment for me today. I stood at the window and looked into the sky and I felt life – as shitty as my life seems to me, I loved the feeling of being alive.